I’m Having His Baby!

We are incredibly thrilled to share that I’m pregnant! We are due with sweet baby McNitt this October, and are truly over the moon with excitement and gratitude. It is not lost on me what a miracle it is to get pregnant, and carry a healthy baby, so before I dive into anything else, I want to share that my prayers and love are constantly with those who are facing very difficult journeys to bring new life into this world.

Becoming a mother, and the road to get there, is by far the most emotional, difficult, all-encompassing journey that I’ve seen so many of my very favorite people go through. There really aren’t even the right words to comfort someone when they’re having a difficult time, and all I’ve been able to do is point people (and oftentimes, myself) toward God, and let His plan play out. It’s almost impossible to see while you’re in it, but I have full faith that miracle babies, and miracle families (no matter what they look like or how they’re formed), are on the horizon for everyone who is in the thick of it right now.

When We Found Out

We found out a few days before our second wedding anniversary back in early February. I literally couldn’t believe it despite fact that we had been trying and diligently tracking my ovulation the entire time (I got the positive pregnancy test five days before my missed period). Looking back, everything was so clearly orchestrated by God, and His timing couldn’t be more perfect.

But oh my gosh do I have SO MUCH TO SAY about being on the birth control pill over over a decade, how that affected my anxiety (who knew?), not being able to regain my period after going off of the pill, then trying to conceive and what worked best for us, and of course the entire TTC industry and culture surrounding it. I decided early on to keep our road to baby private while we were in it (that was a personal choice, I don’t think there’s a right or wrong time to share it), so I have bottled up so much and am literally bursting with my discoveries and thoughts on it all. That in itself deserves its own blog post which will be coming out soon. Please send me your questions in the meantime– I will be sharing it all because I truly knew NOTHING (John Snow) at the start, and ended up burying my head in research to understand what I know today.

The First Trimester

So yes, I’ve been pregnant for months now (I’m currently in the second trimester in month four!), which means I was pregnant when I visited my parents in Maine (I found out less than 24 hours before that), Johnny’s 30th birthday trip in St. John (hahaha can you believe), my Sail to Sable collection launch in Vero Beach, my best friend’s daughter’s second birthday in NYC (don’t worry my shot was water), and of course Easter in Vero this past week. I’ll sum up the first trimester as being so blissfully in love with this baby. We had been seeing a Reproductive Endocrinologist (basically a fertility specialist) in NYC as we were trying to conceive, which meant that they had me come in for bloodwork twice when I found out that I was pregnant (to confirm rising HCG levels), and then we got ultrasounds done at six weeks, eight weeks, and then ten weeks when we “graduated” from the Reproductive Endocrinologist and switched to a regular OBGYN. It was such a blessing to get to see this little baby so early on.

Though I have not experienced morning sickness or any intense pregnancy side effects so far (which I’m grateful for, I know that’s not always the case), my main struggle for the first trimester was nerves and anxiousness surrounding the baby’s health and growth. It has been so much more nerve-wracking than I can really even express. It’s such a weird feeling– to love something so much that you’ve not even met yet, and which you’re responsible for growing and protecting inside of you. I’ve done a lot of working through these feelings with Alexandra, my Christian life coach, and being a mom of three herself, she’s been such a source of comfort and guidance for me.

The first trimester highlights have been receiving good news about the baby at each ultrasound, telling our families and closest friends about our news (I recorded it all, not to worry 😂), and finding out the gender together. To say that we are obsessed with this little bebe would be an understatement.

But is this even a blog post if I don’t share a few links? Here’s a list I put together of the items I’ve leaned on most during my pregnancy so far (and a few frivolous items as well, namely this October birthstone necklace and these juicy gummy worms…).

What’s Next?!

Well, it feels SO good to finally shout it from the rooftops that we are expecting (and to stop camouflaging the growing bump with loose clothes and creative poses 😂). I’m going to start working on a blog post with my thoughts on trying to conceive, and will share a Q&A on Instagram stories soon for that. I’ll also start sharing snippets of the past few months, and continue to try to express how leaning on God was, and is, the only way through this surreal time.

Thank you all, as always, for sharing in our excitement and anticipation of this gift. This baby is so incredibly lucky and loved already! xx